tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-90118903599669328562024-02-19T03:24:19.370-08:00nonsensical world of shane bugbeeShane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.comBlogger146125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-19070718590522940942020-12-01T12:37:00.000-08:002020-12-01T12:37:47.557-08:00wow!! my old blog.It's been over 7years since I've even seen this blog. Not sure how the writing or politics fair with my current self.<div><br></div><div>Feel free to question me if you find an oddity.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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THE SITE HAS A LOT MORE THAN A BLOG SECTION TOO... VIDEOS, PHOTOS AND MUCH, MUCH MORE...<br>
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<a href="http://www.shanebugbee.com/">http://www.shanebugbee.com/</a>Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-53805601812736146632013-06-26T09:37:00.001-07:002013-06-26T09:39:14.533-07:00vagina full of rightswhat kind of life will you LIVE when you have a vagina full of rights but the rest of your body has no rights? what kind of life will you LIVE when you have the rights to marry whomever you want but the rest of your life has no rights?<br />
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please, think about what is important for all of us and put your fight there too.<br />
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-holding our government as accountable and transparent as they'd like those they govern.Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-44056252280260990722013-06-25T01:06:00.000-07:002013-06-25T01:28:55.632-07:00I don't think I'll ever call dog a dog again<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I sure am glad to have know my friend cheyenne. I don't think I'll ever call dog a dog again, especially when talking to a person about their friend... today I told a young man he had a great looking dog and I instantly felt I should have said friend or pal, instead of dog. <br />
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It seems everything I do used to either start with cheyenne or end with cheyenne... cooking, she'd be in the kitchen looking for a scrap and always laying smack dab in the middle of the floor... I know we once mused about making her a dog-skin rug when she passed... when the time came, burying her was hard enough.<br />
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and coming home is less, and leaving is too.<br />
cooking isn't the same and eating has become a chore.<br />
I used to look fwd to a solitary walk and today, I can't imagine a walk with out her.<br />
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I'm in such pain over this, but it is sweet pain for you/I can't have this kind of pain with out a lot of investing in the joy and the love of it all...I'm glad cheyenne helped to melt the ice around my heart, I'm glad she suspected me a good pal and I'm glad she let me prove that to her... I only wish every day we had together was as close and fulfilling as the last 6 or so years. don't get me wrong, I've always felt a bond to cheyenne's personality... hell, when she was in peril of being brought to the kennel, I asked amy to save and care for her more than once... yea, I had to ask amy as I know that I'm just too odd and out of it to be responsible to care for much, hell, it's a job to get me to clean up my workspace and to shower, well, cheyenne did afford me the chance to put off a shower as she ALWAYS loved my scent.<br />
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cheyenne, I so love and miss you. <br />
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amy posted a nice obit here: <a href="http://www.usaodd.com/?p=1060">http://www.usaodd.com/?p=1060</a>Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-71411393316807288072013-06-21T14:01:00.001-07:002013-06-21T18:32:56.017-07:00never not broken.<div class="p1">
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a week ago, I buried my great friend, cheyenne. I refuse to relegate her to 'dog' status for she was so much more to me and, better than most people I know or have known. she was one of the best friends I've ever had... loyal, scary smart, and always keeping an aye out for us.</div>
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today, I understand, without doubt, that when you run in a pac you are linked not only emotionally, but telepathically, you share energies, viruses, germs and most important, thoughts… we all have the potential to really link our minds up to feel, to communicate… how incredible.</div>
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about 48 hrs before cheyenne passed I felt us starting to disconnect as she became concerned for her future and her pain, she started to pull away and think of herself.</div>
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in that moment I started to feel lost or lop-sided… to mentally limp.</div>
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she passed about a day later and as much as we didn't what her last hours to be about us, but, to be about her, to make sure she wasn't in pain, things didn't work out as we planned… we loved her so much we tried too hard and her last strong moments were spent at the vets as they tired to bring up her sugar levels and bullshit that should have never been done… I knew better, I after all had suspected cheyenne and myself were in fact linked. I knew the start of her suffering was the end… yet, in our history together, she's had really bad moments before that and pulled out of it, so, we've done what our family has always done… against all odds we fought back.</div>
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on a very bright note, cheyenne was laid to rest and buried under an apple tree on the beach she loved, the beach where we shared our greatest years together, where we shared so much, where we learned from each other... all the walks on that beach we took… those were the best years of my life.</div>
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you know, I get it, I understand feeling above certain species of animals, but sometimes, when you get to know and understand a species a bit, sometimes you'll observe the stand outs, the alphas, the top dogs, those special individuals that help forward their species… well, cheyenne was one of those beings. she was magic. truly. I'm less without her and more for knowing her.</div>
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howl in gluttony - howl in lust - howl in celebration<br />
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it seems like I waited all day for an up moment from cheyenne… and when she's up and happy, there's not much better. what a pleasant and kind friend.<br />
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I made liver for her. before I cooked the liver I gave her some raw, as well as the blood the liver was packed in… she scarfed it up but not before giving me her skeptical look like, what's the hook, is this really ok. I so love that she is such a thinker, so smart.. a skeptic after my own heart.<br />
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made me think of the time she STOLE eight pounds of steak from our kitchen table, this was maybe 8 years ago… I had purchased a mega load of beef, it was a great deal and, <i><b><span style="font-size: large;">when theres a deal on steaks, you grab it!</span></b></i> I had this beef thought out and deeply planed, some would be froze, we'd grill some, take the left overs and use them for fajitas and so on… I had just spiced them and went to my office to consult ye'old internet on freezing to avoid freezer burn and other tips to prep our meals and meat for the next couple of weeks. I was at my desk all of what seemed like 30 seconds and asked amy if cheyenne was with her, in her office, she said "yes" and then, "no, I guess not". I jumped and moved like a fat man who was about to loose his next two weeks of decent meals and, sure as shit, the pooch had gotten to the steaks… within what seemed like ONE MINUTE, eight pounds of steak were gone, as was the pooch… the plate was still there, no trail of steak juice, they were just gone… steam shot out of my ears and I went on the hunt to find cheyenne… when I found her, she was in the furthest part of the basement, under a shelf and far out of my reach… I couldn't reach her with a broom handle, nothing… I demanded she face the music and she did eventually slither out of that corner.<br />
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I wasn't sure exactly what I was going to do, but I knew it wasn't good… my early training as an abusive asshole came into play and, as I yelled and screamed and chased cheyenne up the stairs, amy later told me she was sure murder was on my mind… especially after I herded cheyenne into the bathroom and lifted her into the tub… amy was right behind me and ready to jump in the line of fire… I was so fucking steamed I wanted to pummel the pooch, I was so close, I was yelling and screaming and then, out of nowhere I turned the shower on and yelled, "YOU DON'T LIKE SHOWERS - DO YOU!!!" WELL I DON'T LIKE MY MEAT STOLEN"!!!!!!! I looked at amy and told her something HAD to be done, she must be punished, this was a clear crossing of the line… a total betrayal!!! amy looked at me and said, "shane, she's a dog, that's what they do". oh man, I must have turned purple - I stormed out of the bathroom muttering "she's a dog, that's what they do" - "she's a dog, that's what they do"<br />
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indeed, that's what she does and that's what I do and that's what we all do… later that night amy explained to me that dogs have the maturity level of an eight year old and I need to try to treat her as a child.<br />
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it was an extreme moment in our relationship, but it was one where I gained respect for cheyennes wild, her individual, her animal, her place, and all animals place in the world, equal with human-kind, we're all just trying to get along and <i><b><span style="font-size: large;">when theres a deal on steaks, you grab it!</span></b></i><br />
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we'll be feeding cheyenne liver and chicken and burgers and bacon until she'll eat no more.<br />
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<br />Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-24996333993743078852013-06-10T10:54:00.000-07:002013-06-11T02:12:04.718-07:00a hero like cheyenne...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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today I can't help but think of how strong cheyenne is and has been, how heroic she is.<br />
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I remember when we first started taking her into our life, she was basically abandoned, more than once, by my ex-younger brother, boy, that story is a heartbreaker that I'll save for another day, today I will recount one of the first times I took her out when we started to take her in…<br />
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we lived on the south side of chicago and in a ruff and tuff neighborhood called canary-ville… we lived right across from the stockyards uptown sinclair once wrote of, it was an area that was comfortable with brutality… and with these kinds of urban hoods comes roving packs of dogs, wild alley dogs on the hunt for food and in total survival mode… so, I'm taking cheyenne out, a lot later than I should be and I notice a pac of dogs rounding the corner… 4-5 dogs, three of which are huge rottwiler-ish dogs… and they growl and start to aggress… cheyenne immediately goes low, snake low, and as these dog show their teeth, she moves fast and low as a snake towards each of them individually… the aggressive dogs start to retreat, though still growling… but cheyenne keeps moving at them, like I've said, quick as a snake, never letting any of them get behind her and, all at once, the pack took off down the alley, the pooch then bolted back to my side and we quickly went inside.<br />
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I couldn't believe my eyes, but it was real… she had pushed off a pack of wild, south side of chicago, alley dogs. I was so amazed I remember telling someone the next day, that someone asked me if cheyenne had ever shown her teeth or growled, I said no and they told me, usually, the dog who shows it's teeth is the dog that loses the fight… not sure how true that is, but it seemed somewhat logical.<br />
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today, as my pal lays on the kitchen floor and I can't get her to wag, even after singing to her, which always works, I know our time together is coming to an end… I know I must be strong and brave and do what's best for her, rather than myself...<br />
I refuse to be weak in the face of strength. I refuse to let a hero like cheyenne go out surrounded by selfish, spineless, lack of action.<br />
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I've seen too long to take their dog in for the final vet visit due to their own need to keep a friend in their life who is in obvious pain… I remember on our road trip, we visited a home that had a dog in the middle of the floor, balled up, skin and bones, stinky as it pissed itself, not eating much, trick fed and being medicated… the dog was in obvious pain, deep pain, not able to move and the dogs friend just couldn't bring himself to take him to the vet, told us as much and I couldn't help but think, how crule, how weak and how unrealistic… in the wild how would this turn out? would the animal be eaten or just starve itself to death?<br />
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I don't know, but I do know I have to ready myself for that moment, it's coming, and I feel it's coming soon and I can not be weak, not until after, then I'll wilt.<br />
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you know, I still have some hope she'll have another summer of fun with us, we've seen cheyenne creep towards death more than once, we've seen her sick and saved her and she's pulled away from death more than once, she surprises me all the time, I guess her always surprising me is one of the things I so love and will miss… hell, I'm not sure a day has gone by until recent that she hasn't surprised me.<br />
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Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-85526600587925231592013-06-09T17:50:00.002-07:002013-06-09T18:15:38.587-07:00even in her decline she is considerate and caring<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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toady was a good day, cheyenne and myself were able to take a nap together. she's a funny one and has never liked to be touched or held, she still has and has retained a bit of wild animal, even when she submits to instructions she's not ok with, she'll give me/us a look like, I'm only doing this due to the threat of pain or discipline. the nap was wonderful, for me.<br />
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I also understand that because of her pain and illness she needs to feel comfort and is submitting to her pain and letting me hold her… the other night I was trying to silently weep when cheyenne laid near me and laid her head on my arm… and even in her decline she is considerate and caring and tried to give comfort, and she succeeded in that moment… we pressed our heads together and read each others mind/minds. I feel very luck to be able to communicate with her like this, lucky she gifted me the knowledge of listening with my mind.<br />
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this afternoon she seems to be having issues standing, hasn't eaten yet and seems to be worried about going outside due to the three steps leading to the back yard.<br />
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and for a moment last night we all had fun, we laughed at larry david and hung out like old times… her ups and downs are becoming more frequent.Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-56069476787512936782013-06-08T18:55:00.001-07:002013-06-09T18:18:11.660-07:00it's strange, for me, to feel so much.<div class="p1">
my good friend cheyenne is dying.</div>
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the last animal I was close to my parents took away from me, I later found out she was taken to a farm-ish area and let out of the car as they, the so-called parents of mine, drove away… later in my adult life, my so-called mother would describe the scene to me. the visual I imagine of sandy, my great and honorable german shepherd friend isn't something I like to recall. there are so many horrible tales of abuse to sandy that I hate to recall, and the times I would be beaten and she'd stick up for me only to be beaten... yea, I don't like to think about that shit.</div>
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cheyenne is the first furry being I've gotten as close as I did with sandy. don't get me wrong, I married and adopted a wonderful friend, our old pit bull roxanne, but she was amys and as close as we were, it wasn't as close as cheyenne and I am today.</div>
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not really sure as to why that is… my guess would be right place right time and or, we went thru a LOT of hard times together… and hell, cheyenne is a thinker, scary smart, unlike MOST creatures I have met… trust me, I'm not just saying this because she's my pal, she's honestly a very smart fur-son… hell, she talks from time to time, once, she even howled the word BAMBINO, though, it sounded like whamwinno… she did it and our jaws dropped and, we were so amazed we spent the next 20 min trying to get her to say it again… it's a long story and one that many of the friends I've met along the way have heard and one that might unfold in another blog post as this moment unfolds.</div>
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I've wanted to shout to the world thru facebook and twitter that I'm dying over this, that I cry myself to sleep, that I'm in deep pain… but I've realized I can't express myself in those forums with my deepest of moments, that those outlets are used, by me, to sell things, to ask for feedback, for attention, and, to fuck around and with others…much like a bar/tavern I guess. not sure why I feel my blog is a place I can talk, but I do.</div>
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Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-14661485480329621902013-06-08T18:48:00.002-07:002013-06-08T18:53:09.411-07:00press, interviews and my forsaken blog...ok, so I've forsaken this here blog. lost track and forgotten it's importance to ME. this has become a place for me to talk to me first, and then, document and/or file memories away... I would say brag, but that's what facebook and twitter are for.<br />
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here's some links to some of the press and interviews I've received and given in the last couple of months, most have been for the new book and movie (a booovie). more book reviews and other press can be found on and at the website we have set up for our book/movie, the suffering and celebration of life in america: <a href="http://www.usaodd.com/">http://www.usaodd.com/</a><br />
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Vice, weeeeee VICE interview: <a href="http://www.vice.com/read/shane-bugbee-searched-for-the-bad-side-of-america-and-didnt-find-it">http://www.vice.com/read/shane-bugbee-searched-for-the-bad-side-of-america-and-didnt-find-it</a><br />
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Interview in pork magazine #10, read it here: <a href="http://issuu.com/seangoblinko/docs/pork10">http://issuu.com/seangoblinko/docs/pork10</a><br />
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The Harvard Crimson does a nice write up: <a href="http://www.thecrimson.com/article/2013/5/1/Bugbees-Roadtrip-To-Harvard/#">http://www.thecrimson.com/article/2013/5/1/Bugbees-Roadtrip-To-Harvard/#</a><strong style="background-color: white; border: none; box-sizing: border-box; color: #414141; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, 'Lucida Grande', sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 21px; margin: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;"></strong><br />
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Interview on the great KBOO:<b> </b><a href="https://archive.org/details/KbooAmyShane">https://archive.org/details/KbooAmyShane</a><br />
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Interview with The Gauntlet, includes audio: <a href="http://www.thegauntlet.com/article/1225/27543/The-Shane-And-Amy-Bugbee-Interview-On-Their-Year-On-The-Road#.UUji1uvWGjo">http://www.thegauntlet.com/article/1225/27543/The-Shane-And-Amy-Bugbee-Interview-On-Their-Year-On-The-Road#.UUji1uvWGjo</a><br />
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Interview with Deathmetal.org: <a href="http://www.deathmetal.org/news/interview-with-shane-and-amy-bugbee-milwaukee-metalfest-the-suffering-and-celebration-of-life-in-america/">http://www.deathmetal.org/news/interview-with-shane-and-amy-bugbee-milwaukee-metalfest-the-suffering-and-celebration-of-life-in-america/</a><br />
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Bizzare Magazine does a review, what an honor: <a href="http://www.usaodd.com/?p=583">http://www.usaodd.com/?p=583</a><br />
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Audio interview by Matt Dwyer:<b> </b><a href="http://feralaudio.com/33-a-year-at-the-wheel-pt-1-with-shane-and-amy-bugbee/">http://feralaudio.com/33-a-year-at-the-wheel-pt-1-with-shane-and-amy-bugbee/</a><br />
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Audio interview by Scott Horton: <a href="http://scotthorton.org/2012/11/20/112012-shane-and-amy-bugbee/">http://scotthorton.org/2012/11/20/112012-shane-and-amy-bugbee/</a><br />
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<br />Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-90183392151165306972013-03-13T12:21:00.003-07:002013-03-13T12:21:33.777-07:00new website - all art, all anger, not for the weak...<a href="http://creativeclasstrumpsrulingclass.com/">http://creativeclasstrumpsrulingclass.com/</a> - woot! a new website that I'm putting together.<br />
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stoked for many reasons... it feels like the old days of putting together a zine.<br />
I also dig the educational aspects of it, the contributors I'm able to speak with make this site like going to an art school, but a cool ass, all learning, no games, art school... and the questions that are being answered by the subjects who are answering... really great stuff... I think this evolves the art conversation and, offers something original to the, "what is art and why is it important" on going debate.<br />
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not for the weak... <a href="http://creativeclasstrumpsrulingclass.com/">http://creativeclasstrumpsrulingclass.com/</a>Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-65431145470704832642013-02-06T18:46:00.001-08:002013-02-06T18:46:17.607-08:00artist heath care in the futre and today...As an artist, I have no heath care or union... as a pal of mine, another artist posted up a fundraiser for his poch and the vet bill I thought I might give it a try with this tooth ache as it it getting worse and I feel poisoning me and my system.<br />
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If you like or have liked what I do, think about helping out. If you support the arts at all, think about helping out... this might be the future of heath care for the artist.<br />
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<br />Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-6441485149769591942013-01-01T00:27:00.000-08:002013-01-01T00:27:11.431-08:00loosen up and have fun in 2013!happy new year to all, not all as in all, because that wouldn't be fair but all as in all the ones that I love and adore and appreciate and respect, like,<br />
the creatives, the artists, the revolutionaries and the evolutionaries,<br />
those who buy art and those who love art and even those who think they know art,<br />
to those underground and those who are outlaw,<br />
to the philosophical and the thoughtful and those who want more,<br />
to those who hold out hope and those who have faith as long as it's science minded and rooted in proof, to those who lust after the flesh and love the earth as well,<br />
to the strippers, the whores and those who put out,<br />
to the bakers and makers and lovers of pie,<br />
for those that are happy and those who must cry, to the strong and the broken as long as they don't quit, to the metal heads and punkers and loudest of the loud,<br />
to those who speak out no matter the sound,<br />
and have I mentioned to those who do anal?<br />
yes, I must not forget those who have spread their butt cheeks wide and far, so, to those who have inserted a tongue or a finger or something sorta wide, for a life without analingus isn't something I'd like and it's something all should try… loosen up and have fun in 2013!Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-88697341744935196582012-12-20T02:45:00.001-08:002012-12-20T03:50:57.318-08:00I was a school shooter before school shooting was cool.<br />
I was a school shooter before school shooting was cool.<br />
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A friend & I joked we were school shooters before school shooting was cool, I can't help but have a fondness for the school shooter - I relate.<br />
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I've studied the criminal mind and more specifically, murderous youthful rage. I did this because I myself was a pretty hate filled young-man.<br />
The perversion of the human animal takes many forms… the killer who kills for no other reason but to kill is just one of them.<br />
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The serial killer has adult tastes, usually a fetish, a repressed sexuality or guilt. The school shooter is pure, they are honest and haven't grown into having an adult fetish to act out against, because of this, the study of the school shooter can bring the root issues to the surface.<br />
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I had been working on a book about this very subject, but lost most of the notes is an unfortunate incident similar to a fire… Anyway, here are some of my thoughts on the matter, some from an old notebook that survived the fire, some from memory….<br />
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- Consumption and digestion of what you take in - Drugs, the doctor, the doctor's corporate master and industry.<br />
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Giving out pills without factoring in an individual's complete diet is an obvious problem. Of course what we eat changes our chemical make up and without considering stimulants like coffee, sugar, and the rest while prescribing drugs that alter, affect and change the mind isn't real smart. So many consume sugar and other stimulants at the same time as taking prozac and other psychotropic drugs, and doctors, so-called food producers, and pharmaceutical companies do not want to admit that not everyone can handle the combo.<br />
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Ultimately, not everyone is meant to march, serve, and think the same way 98% of society does… the person who thinks different should be figured out, not pilled into submission.<br />
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- Parents, teachers, curators and social safety nets. Teachers are over worked, underpaid and not considered.<br />
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Teachers spend more time with your children than the school board or school administrator, yet the teacher is told what to do by the school administrator and are seldom considered when pointing out a child who needs more, whether that more is a hug, food or mental help.<br />
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Critical thought is important in a world full of really cool tools like the internet or guns or big trucks, or chemicals sold as cleaning products, or even deep fryers… We need a populace that can handle and deserves these tools.<br />
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Also, the correlation between art programs and art classes being removed from schools and the rise of school shootings is greater than age old access to guns. The very fact that art and expression isn't part of the debate tells me we are a very fucked populace headed for a very boring and grey near future before the bright enlightened future some of us know is possible.<br />
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Maybe the school shooter is the ultimate brute/outsider artist, pure animal expression. So maybe, just maybe, society might want to re-think the importance of art in schools and art in general.<br />
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- Control through religion and capitalism and the need to be of use, and/or you NEED to be of use.<br />
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Our society has become predictable and in a way, boring... It's the unexpected that is what life is all about and the loss of control and the unexpected is what is rare and becoming extinct. The animal inside wants to run, to achieve, not to be controlled or to be tamed, or to follow rules that benefit a fake society and it's man made monetary system. School should be a fair playing field, a place where one can run as fast and climb as high as their mind will take them - today, access to school is access to slavery and success through submission… It is where you are trained to be of USE, to be profitable, or at least, how to survive week to week at a dead end job. It seldom offers knowledge or enlightenment any longer.<br />
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Control through religion, repression and guilt. Continually being told you are bad, or wrong for being yourself, or wanting what you want, is a control mechanism that perverts beyond simple man made laws, it makes the person question their very being.<br />
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Control and guilt will drive any animal insane, or at the very least pervert them. Religion and it's guilt isn't needed anymore. We need to stop with controls and let the human animal be free to act as it wishes… to climb as high as it can, and of course to accept the immediate responsibility for fucking up.<br />
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Capitalism as it is today is a cancer that has destroyed the family unit, parents are too caught up in success to be parents. TV and the internet is the baby sitter and without a parental curator a child is solidifying their fears as fact. We teach consumerism is success, and what happens when we can't all be on the top and have all we think we want and need???<br />
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If we ALL were not so controlled we wouldn't have the need to watch horrific news. We're just reliving something from our past, something within our DNA that has a need to run from a bear and to deal with a bear eating our children from when we lived in a cave and the lion was mightier than the man… The lion is obsolete, as in the elephant, man has taken over every stinking inch of the globe, it is now time to understand our past and why we crave the horror of life and try to get beyond that - I again think art is a great way to go deep within the mind, to question our motives, to understand our future.<br />
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Art and culture is part of what makes the human animal so amazing. To deny this is to deny us a future.<br />
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- Education, tools, the internet, the information age and more information.<br />
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The popularity of shooting up your school could be seen as a side effect of the information age. TV, video games, guns and the internet… all tools, but tools that demand a mind that has been trained and taught how to think critically, not how to listen and follow, but a mind that knows how to filter and understand what it's consuming. Today, we have all the information we need to build any case we want and believe anything we'd like… end of the world? I have a link that will prove that too.<br />
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The argument that mass shootings is a white thing is out of touch, white on white hate - gang bangers of all colors shoot their guns a lot, though perhaps over a longer period, and kill and corrupt plenty… I'd almost bet, if you did the numbers, urban crime kills would be greater than that of the spree shooter. Guns are marketed to all colors and there is no shortage of machismo or sex or both in anything marketed to the male… The only big difference is the news is white and broadcast to a white audience, the news doesn't talk about the school shoot-outs in the colored schools, the mass shootings of black neighborhoods or latino shoot-outs at the salsa bar, but they happen and happen a LOT more than school shootings. The skew of the news is scary, the manipulation of the human through news and entertainment is amazing… the only hope is an intelligent and truly educated populace.<br />
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All in all the question should be how does a person become so enraged that they want to take it out on others, or maybe so crazed as to believe what they are doing is a good idea?<br />
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In a sort of conclusion, we need to take education serious and school as a place that does more than train the children of the future to listen and obey… Teachers should be paid well and treated with the upmost respect… Smaller classes, shit like that. Art classes should be mandatory, sports, not so much… You can't groom a warrior culture through sports and expect peace in your schools/society. On the other hand, art and expressive classes afford a child to explore their mind, fantasize and try to understand the creative side of themselves and fantasize a future, not a fate.<br />
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Sometimes people think different, they don't fit the general curriculum, this again falls on the teacher and parent to realize the difference and find an outlet for the person who thinks different.<br />
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As I've said, the direct correlation between taking art our of schools and the increase in school shootings is amazing, and more in touch with a real reality vs. blaming a tool. I would also argue that the lack of respect for art and culture is in step with the horrible, void of all substance entertainment/propaganda we now feed our children.<br />
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Ok, so in double conclusion… capitalism being taken over by corporations has helped to kill off and dumb down arts and culture.<br />
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Corporations taking over society have helped re-define capitalism to monetary value being the only value. The corporations have helped make teachers baby sitters without the respect, they have made the humans function to serve the bottom line and forget about the big picture.<br />
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Some of my solutions...<br />
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Make art and culture a priority - creation over consumption… create more than you consume.<br />
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Treat our social safety nets with more respect than we ever have, not less pay, more pay for teachers, cops, fireman, social workers and those who are at eye level with societal ills.<br />
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Make parenting a priority. Prosecute and punish bad parents, hire alternative and well trained parents for the children who need them or who have inept parents… Show children you care and you can bet, they will care right back. Making parenting a priority also means making sure a person is able to provide for their children without both parents working three jobs each.<br />
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Quit with the religious based guilt. It's ok to masturbate and fuck, and fuck the same gender and to have fun, no matter what the fun be, of course as long as it doesn't hurt others.<br />
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Don't only take teachers serious and treat them better, but expect more out of them, a higher educated populace, critical thought, science, arts and culture, philosophy, are all very important to teach.<br />
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Demand more out of the media, demand broadcasters become better curators, that they have a point beyond soda-pop sales and bending over for the dollar, to the corporation, demand they produce and broadcast a higher percentage of fun and educational material, and hold the parent responsible for ALL their children take in, too much junk food or too much junk T.V. Parents have to take responsibility for the person they help raise and who will soon enter society.<br />
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Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-2232693120929311372012-12-09T09:59:00.002-08:002012-12-09T09:59:48.309-08:00nice clam.I live in a small, what used to be fishing community.<br />We can clam dig here.<br /><br />I needed the worlds greatest clam dip recipe... after searching the net and finding a zillion recipes, I combined and added my own spice thoughts and this is what I came up with... and yes, I consider it the worlds greatest clam dip.<br />
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-8oz of cream cheese<br />
- 12 oz of canned clams<br />
-1/4 cup clam broth from can<br />
-2 teaspoons lemon juice<br />
-1 teaspoon worcestershire sauce<br />
-3 large cloves garlic<br />
-1/2 teaspoon truffle salt<br />
- dash of fresh ground pepper<br />
-2 tablespoons mayo<br />
-2 tablespoons sour cream<br />
-1 tablespoons fresh cut onion<br />
-1/8 teaspoon or more of cayenne pepper<br />
-1/2 teaspoon smoked paprika<br />
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mix, chill, eat.<br />
Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-59099572288401213082012-12-03T04:35:00.003-08:002012-12-03T04:58:25.230-08:00influence and intent of the artist and the copycat.<br />
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There are bootleggers and there are creatives, trying to get their footing, trying to find their way.<br />
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There are sell outs and there are copy-cats, trying to climb the ladder of success, trying to buy their way.<br />
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I remember hanging out with an artist who painted using a projector, he painted what you might call pop-art, and I told him I've always wanted to do what he was doing but I didn't want to be un-original or be considered a rip-off. he told me that was next to impossible, that of course in the beginning I might paint something similar to what he would, but, I'd add my own take, and I would grow as an artist and find the source material that attracted me and or that I was attracted to.<br />
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that was great and encouraging advice. I've used it ever since as I look for inspiration when thinking about experimenting and trying something new.<br />
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now, if an underground style or lingo was co-opted and used in the mainstream, no matter their source material, I'd feel betrayed in some sort of odd way. when I thought about it, I had to wonder how could a creative regulate inspiration, if dali was the first surrealist, can you imagine if he was able to trademark that style??? how would art and society have ever evolved, how could any art movement and/or society evolve if the artist took ownership of the style?<br />
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that brings me to the intent of a creative/artist, are they following their calling in life or are they trying to figure out the best combination for fame and fortune, are they creating beauty, or product, or both, or are they just waiting for an offer to sell out and do what they are told or what is expected?<br />
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I hate creative sell-outs.<br />
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what the fuck is a sell out anyway? I'd say it's one who takes the money and leaves their ethics behind, they are paid to compromise… to hide their truth for coin. art, artists do not compromise, they collaborate, but they never compromise their vision, at least not in the underground art scene. compromise of artistic vision is something they might teach in art school, it might be out of need and desperation, maybe that sell-out shit comes from the need to belong, to justify, to make good to dad, mom, country and your student loan, and that is for sure not an underground ethinc.<br />
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the only thing worse than the sell out is the copy cat. the person so desperate they feel the need to bite styles, to duplicate what is popular. now, I'm not talking bootleggers, I have a respect for bootlegging, but real bootlegging happens by the truckload, it happened to corporations, it is knock-off jeans and product, not art and ideas. the copy cat is the lowest form of life, for it is not the student struggling thru, finding their way, their vision, their voice, their source material, it is the worst kind of person, they are lazy, they are of a microwave mind, they want what you have and they want it now, no training, no climbing of the ladder, nothing. they are the start of the decline.<br />
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the copycat is a parasite, and one who is helping to destroy the underground and ultimately you, when you are fed no more nutritional art and entertainment, when all you see, hear, and read has either been done before or is a cheap, heartless, lack of vision, lack of all feeling, carbon copy of an artist with vision, you will get sick, you will lose the inspiration art gives, you will become emotionless in large part because the art you are taking in is without emotions, you will lose all feeling, all hope, and then you will lose the will to live and succumb to weak behavior.<br />
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because the art and culture you consume is void, you too will become void of all, you will stop asking why do we live and start asking when will I die?<br />
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I wonder, if anyone gets that the art and culture they consume is sort of like food, and, like the food chain and the cycle of life, the smaller, lesser food, sustains the larger food. fish for instance, survive off of eating smaller fish and without the smaller fish, the larger fish withers and gets weak.<br />
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this is what is happening with art and expression. some might consider the underground arts to be a small fish in and of itself, but, it is eaten on a regular basis and, in return, the underground has fed some large fish (the mainstream entertainment industry)… today, the underground is near extinction and without a thriving underground, the art and entertainment you consume will, and is, withering.<br />
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<b>the underground is…</b><br />
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the underground is a lot of things, but clean and upright it is not.<br />
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the underground is the cave where art was born.<br />
it is raw, it is low, it is knuckle dragging.<br />
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the underground is nonconformist and threatening.<br />
it is dangerous and outlaw.<br />
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the underground has ethics and is stubborn and firm in it's belief.<br />
it is passion and political, not one or the other, both.<br />
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the underground gives without asking.<br />
it is generous and respectful of creation.<br />
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the underground is challenging to tradition.<br />
we are our own masters, we are ourself.<br />
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the underground is innovative and influential.<br />
it happens here first.<br />
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the underground is skeptical.<br />
it is forever an angry child.<br />
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the underground is fun and tragic.<br />
it is the refuge of life's force.<br />
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the underground is the soil in which you grow.<br />
it is nutritious and forever feeding.<br />
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the underground isn't a small fish in a big pond.<br />
it is the ground that cups and sustains the pond.<br />
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FOR MORE, PLEASE GO TO: <a href="http://www.usaodd.com/">http://www.usaodd.com/</a><br />
<br />Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-51645735560169050502012-11-29T02:18:00.003-08:002012-11-29T02:18:36.326-08:00the extinction of the individual.<br />
yes, the individual, I can still believe in that, I see it as fading, maybe a close to extinction kind of thing... when we left on our road trip, I wanted to paint a damning document of america. after the wife and I experienced so many loving and smart folks, at leasts kind and simple, well, I couldn't paint that picture... I felt it was my america too and, we should stay put and fight here.<br />
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today, I again feel like leaving, anywhere would be better than here. it's not misunderstanding, ignorance and hate that upset me, it the junk culture that really breaks my spirit. america has become and worships junk culture and tourist locations and more junk culture.... <a href="http://www.usaodd.com/">http://www.usaodd.com/</a><br />
Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-52763207344055192542012-11-26T18:54:00.000-08:002012-11-26T18:54:00.381-08:00I just got word in from scion... they will distribute our new book.<br />
the programing is in place. the artist feels they must submit to survive and that servitude takes the power of change right out of the art, it drains the magic that unrestrained, unrepentant creativity holds.<br />
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or maybe it's the creator and not the corporation who restricts and restrains their own creation for those who can afford it, who can pay for it... maybe art has always been free, maybe that's arts natural state, to fly free.<br />
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regardless, deep down inside I feel there is something very wrong with a scion sponsoring the underground and counter-culture - I will always hate scion sponsored crap. maybe it shows my age. dinosaur.<br />
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I just got word in from scion... they will distribute our new book and in return we'll be able to tour with the melvins... as part of the wash and detail the rock-stars car crew, we'll have to move to oklahoma after to work at the scion dealership there, but we have a choice, work for scion or be thrown out of a helicopter over the pacific... ok, the scion drone is here, I have to go check the neighbors oil.<br />
Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-72677555536201213232012-11-21T01:00:00.002-08:002012-11-21T01:00:44.784-08:00scott horton interviews the wife and I...<br />
The following link is to a fine interview done by Scott Horton. We have been huge fans of Scott ever since his days at anti-war radio. This was fun but way too early. I sound manic and talk at him too much. Amy is great as always.<br />
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<a href="http://scotthorton.org/2012/11/20/112012-shane-and-amy-bugbee/">http://scotthorton.org/2012/11/20/112012-shane-and-amy-bugbee/</a><br />
Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-25655262418855185542012-11-10T19:48:00.000-08:002012-11-10T19:48:00.078-08:00the sweetest days on my life! <br />
for me, the nine days of pie was such a great time. thank you to any and all for attending, for the gifts, the company, the conversation. it was so nice to have a holiday, it was nice to hear children and chat with those we havent seen for so long. this event really fills the hole of not having family to holiday with. amazing. I smile seldom, but today I'm thinking I'll smile more thru out the year and when life kicks and punches I will think of the days I spent with you all on the nine days of pie... these truly are the sweetest days on my life!<br />
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Amy Bugbee has a new blog up at the 9 days of pie website and promisses ALL of the recipes by the AM: <a href="http://ninedaysofpie.com/">http://ninedaysofpie.com/</a><br />
Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-62371009607103604942012-11-04T17:01:00.002-08:002012-11-04T17:01:27.579-08:00the 9 days of pie...are among us.<br />
well, they could be, you only have to make a pie and share it.<br />
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amy created a holiday for us. a holiday to help wipe the holidays other folk feel bad over and, for the most part regret. not the nine days of pie - a holiday built around indulgence and pleasure.<br />
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Amy has a website built around the even complete with recipes...<br />
<a href="http://ninedaysofpie.com/">http://ninedaysofpie.com/</a><br />
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yes I am a lucky man. I am also a grateful man.Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-35255950032120713622012-10-09T00:20:00.000-07:002012-10-09T00:20:01.688-07:00the book... final.I've spoke a lot about doing a book and film over the last 5 years. They are ready. It is finished.<br />
The book and film is really one entity. That's hard to explain, and even if we create a new word, it seems 'we the people' are deeply entrenched in our market and need to be marketed to.<br />
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I'm proud of the project/book/film. My contributions and especially my partners contribution. Amy is an artist who doesn't need to show her art, who is pure as a home grown tomato, she can express and tuck it away in the closet. I'm proud of our collaboration.<br />
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I feel the book has something, maybe captured something. I'm told there is a story in them pages.<br />
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Too close to know. I do know this project has re-sparked my drive to produce. I lost that after the ely drama, the one where I was ripped apart because of expression. I'm sick of talking about it... if there's anything I hope this project/book/film does is that it helps change the dialogue so I don't have to keep explaining the shunning.<br />
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here's a link to the website for the book: <a href="http://www.usaodd.com/">http://www.usaodd.com/</a><br />
we've also made a website to use as a promo tool and at the same time put out the out-takes and featured subjects from the book/film... that site is here: <a href="http://bestandworstthingaboutamerica.com/">http://bestandworstthingaboutamerica.com/</a><br />
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we're working on deciding what cover we will use and have a 'pick the cover' contest going here: <a href="http://www.usaodd.com/?p=115">http://www.usaodd.com/?p=115</a><br />
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I really look forward to folks letting us in on their thoughts about our project/book/film.<br />
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here's a couple of those covers:<br />
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<br />Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9011890359966932856.post-34634607390420762932012-09-28T00:55:00.004-07:002012-09-28T01:56:16.579-07:00john sinclair is all talk and everyone but himself.<br />
Listening in to <a href="http://feralaudio.com/category/conversations-matt-dwyer/">Matt Dwyer's podcast</a> featuring John Sinclair gave me a great big smile. For now I understand what John so loved about Burroughs -- The acting, the fraud, and the great con.<br />
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If you stringed together the interviews with Sinclair you'd see what I see, and that's the evolution of his bullshit - Where he, like Burroughs takes from all around him and spins it into something they call their own. Much like popular writers do every day, they don't live a life and write about that, they write about those who live a life and 'act' as if it was their life.. and being an actor/writer, it's not hard for them to spin that illusion, or it wasn't hard until present-day.<br />
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Now that the age of information is leading to the age of honesty you can document the con.<br />
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Sinclair, in the Matt Dwyer podcast contradicts the argument he had with me when I filmed him some 5 years ago. He basically uses the point I stressed to him and he argued that I was wrong. The point I made was creative influence inspiring all change, and if a revolution was wanted, it would have to come about through creative influence first.<br />
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Later in the Dwyer podcast Sinclair takes from yet another interviewer - a <a href="https://www.facebook.com/williamham1">Mr. William Ham</a> and the interview he did with Sinclair while in Astoria, Oregon for the WTF Fest. John railed on Mr. Ham for bringing up pop culture names and I mean RAILED on him… In the Dwyer interview it seems he's had time to think about Mr. Ham's point and use it as his own.<br />
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The only reason he didn't beat on Matt like he did Mr. Ham was because Matt is a pal of Wayne Kramer, combined with the fact that Amy and I had just called Sinclair out publicly for being an asshole to folks who were his host and folks who went way beyond the call to give him respect and honor his wishes, and to top it off, having an ego that didn't match the results.<br />
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If you listen, and you won't, excluding Matt and Ham of course, you'll hear the dick talking about how famous folks are just people, and once you understand this you can have a conversation with them. Funny, Sinclair isn't capable of a conversation… He cuts the too polite host, Matt Dwyer off time and time again to hear himself sound smart, to hear himself sound famous - Although he's merely regurgitating the words of every great man and woman he's brushed up against.<br />
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A typical poser who came from a zipcode of affluence and for some insane reason admired those who did not… Just like the man Sinclair wrote his college thesis on, William Burroughs.<br />
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here are the links to my interview with john sinclair:<br />
part 1: <a href="http://tmblr.co/ZbFd1yU2aMjw">http://tmblr.co/ZbFd1yU2aMjw</a><br />
part 2: <a href="http://tmblr.co/ZbFd1yU6OAa7">http://tmblr.co/ZbFd1yU6OAa7</a><br />
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here is a link to the matt dwyer podcast…<br />
<a href="http://feralaudio.com/20-writer-john-sinclair/">http://feralaudio.com/20-writer-john-sinclair/</a><br />
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I'll post audio from the william ham broadcast sometime next week.<br />
until that day, here is a link to mr. ham's radio show blog: <a href="http://wow-flutter.blogspot.com/">http://wow-flutter.blogspot.com/</a>Shane Bugbeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14222801568283221689noreply@blogger.com1